10 Minutes Early

 This morning, the wind was like a beast. I do wear some warm clothing but, it’s tearing me apart like paper plane in the eye of the storm. Ok, that’s a bit exaggerating.  I couldn’t sleep last night. Or more like I believe that I have something to straighten. Now that sounds weird. But, I…

Prayer From A Friend

I’ve been in a very bad shape these days due to lack of sleep. Something triggered my insomnia and now I got super awesome sleep deprivation… Like 2-4 hours a day and… I’m super busy with lectures, practice, rehearsal, preparing my stuff for Christmas, also fighting depression. It’s really terrible and made me really cranky,…

Counting Days

insomniaɪnˈsɒmnɪə/ noun noun: insomnia habitual sleeplessness; inability to sleep. synonyms: sleeplessness, wakefulness, restlessness; More inability to sleep; archaicwatchfulness Insomnia is a sleep disorder that is characterized by difficulty falling and/or staying asleep.    Since I was a kid, I always have trouble falling asleep. Either it was my anxiety, something frightens me… Or just simply…

Too Much Wine, Too much…

We all have that day when we just wanna get out and have fun then one of our friends would ask if we should get some drinks… Which will turn into a crazy drinking night… And them eventually you drink a bit too much and feel like shit. Yup.    That happens, right? Wobbly, trying…

Wine’s Life And Dysphoria

What makes me who I am, my childhood, my parents… My depression that I’ve tried to run away from has made me crazy.
I remember someone gave me a barbie doll on my 5th or 7th birthday and I made T-rex ate her… Or she’ll be Shredder’s bitch. I mean, that barbie doll is bigger than my T-rex… That doesn’t make any sense…!
One day someone gave me a kitchen set… Which is crazy. Can you imagine a kitchen twice the size of a T-rex…? Or maybe even bigger…
I turned it into an airplane and play diorama like in Jurassic Park 3 when Alan fly above Isla Sorna.

Ticking Time Bomb

Since I was a kid, my parents always told me to be feminine, long hair, sweet shit cutie, wear goddamn “girly” thing… It’s just not me, not at all. When I was a kid, I live with my grandma and aunt. It was such a happy time but, every kid needs their parents. Guess what,…