Counting Days

insomniaɪnˈsɒmnɪə/ noun noun: insomnia habitual sleeplessness; inability to sleep. synonyms: sleeplessness, wakefulness, restlessness; More inability to sleep; archaicwatchfulness Insomnia is a sleep disorder that is characterized by difficulty falling and/or staying asleep.    Since I was a kid, I always have trouble falling asleep. Either it was my anxiety, something frightens me… Or just simply…

What’s Beyond

Story carries on. So, I have this dream so many times, like about this special someone. Kinda drives me crazy. For me, I know that I shouldn’t look back. Look at me years ago, I’m perfectly fine by my own. I did this and that, I got friends, I laughed. You know, in those empty…

Addiction

Shadow The past I already moved on I let you go Because I was young and stupid Confused, Unsure, Blind Didn’t know how to react Dark You were gone I was gone Our separate ways Never thought I would see you After all those years. Numb I was always alone Without you by my side…

Unbearable

In the beginning, It’s empty. I want to fill it. So I did. It’s hollow. There’s a hole there. Patch it. So you did. But then you’re gone. Destiny, I guess. Life teared it. Saw that hole again, No one able to close. Thought time will heal, It’s not a would, Just born with it….

My Mother ____ Me

I have a mother. Well, everyone have one. So do I. Well… I have a mother who’ll wake me up, shout and wake me up… Just to annoy me with her words. “Your cousin is… Blablabla… Why are you so… Blablabla…” You know what? The fuck with my cousin! Don’t like having a child like…

Nothing but Pain

“As time goes by, I feel empty… My heart is hollow… All the hatred consuming my inner peace… I will be gone in seconds now…” These days, I feel like a dying young person standing in the middle of the crowd doing nothing. So weird… Living in emptiness… I feel so worthless… Useless… I went through…

Punishment, Revenge, Forgiveness

According to Wikipedia: Punishment is the authoritative imposition of something negative or unpleasant on a person or animal in response to behavior deemed wrong by an individual or group. The authority may be either a group or a single person, and punishment may be carried out formally under a system of law or informally in…

Bullet in My Eye

Bullet in My Eye I was 3 years old that time. A small kid who don’t know anything about this cruel and unpredictable world. Who knows, God already show His love to me when I was 3. I didn’t come from a very wealthy family but, at least that time, I can have everything I…