Inside The Walls

Somehow I knew it That… This is going to happen. I just couldn’t feel it anymore. Maybe I’m destined to Walk down my path Alone. Somehow I changed, The world changed, You changed, We changed, Everything changed. You feel different As if I don’t matter. Is it because I’m miserable? Is it because I’m desperate…

It’s Not Your Fault

This is for everyone who hate themselves, who cut themselves, everyone with scars, everyone who just want to be loved, everyone who keep breathing even when it’s painful, everyone who feel unwanted, everyone who got harassed, everyone who got treated inhumane, everyone who is no longer intact.

Not In That Way

Not In That Way Sam Smith Intro: D F#m Bm G D F#m Bm G And I hate to say I love you D F#m Bm G When it’s so hard for me D F#m Bm G And I hate to say I want you D F#m When you make it so clear Bm G…

Wine’s Life And Dysphoria

What makes me who I am, my childhood, my parents… My depression that I’ve tried to run away from has made me crazy.
I remember someone gave me a barbie doll on my 5th or 7th birthday and I made T-rex ate her… Or she’ll be Shredder’s bitch. I mean, that barbie doll is bigger than my T-rex… That doesn’t make any sense…!
One day someone gave me a kitchen set… Which is crazy. Can you imagine a kitchen twice the size of a T-rex…? Or maybe even bigger…
I turned it into an airplane and play diorama like in Jurassic Park 3 when Alan fly above Isla Sorna.

“I Just Want You to be Happy” Bullshit

“Do you believe in this bullshit called love?” You know that part of romance story when one of ’em start saying things like “we can’t be together.” , “i love you but,…” Then cheesy stuff and all the complicated conflict then in the end, saying things like “If you truly love me, you’ll let me…

Peeking Through The Gates of Hell

I’ve been keeping stuff very close to the heart. It’s not that I’m angry… I’m not. It’s just that I’ve been holding myself these past few days (weeks) and I feel miserable. All the stress, all the pressure… I don’t know how to react to these stuff. Sometimes, I feel really painful, deep inside. Earlier,…

What’s Beyond

Story carries on. So, I have this dream so many times, like about this special someone. Kinda drives me crazy. For me, I know that I shouldn’t look back. Look at me years ago, I’m perfectly fine by my own. I did this and that, I got friends, I laughed. You know, in those empty…

Addiction

Shadow The past I already moved on I let you go Because I was young and stupid Confused, Unsure, Blind Didn’t know how to react Dark You were gone I was gone Our separate ways Never thought I would see you After all those years. Numb I was always alone Without you by my side…

Heart and Mind

I know a lot of people in this world went through heart break(s). You, him, her, them… I’ve seen enough. I just never thought I’ll feel it. Until recently. If you know me, or have seen how I am, or just heard about me, or anything… You know, I’m a person who don’t care about…

Adapted to the Dark

I feel kinda weird to write this but, I don’t know why I’m writing this. It’s just that I feel like, I can’t go back anymore. バカ! Do you know… The human eye can function from very dark to very bright levels of light. The eye takes approximately 20–30 minutes to fully adapt from bright…