Prayer From A Friend

I’ve been in a very bad shape these days due to lack of sleep. Something triggered my insomnia and now I got super awesome sleep deprivation… Like 2-4 hours a day and… I’m super busy with lectures, practice, rehearsal, preparing my stuff for Christmas, also fighting depression. It’s really terrible and made me really cranky,…

9 Hours Complicated

      It’s midnight and I’m wide awake. Intentional, actually… It’s my lil’ girl’s birthday today. Which is a bit confusing. It’s the first time we’re separated by time. By that, I mean timezone difference. She lives 9 hours behind me. Which is why, I’m confused. Should I wish her happy birthday now or should…

It’s In The Air, I Can smell It

The whole zoo is roaring in my stomach. Not because I’ve been eating like a monster these days hahaha… The real reason is because I saw my best friend after such a long time. I can’t sleep now, it’s 2 A.M. and really, I’m tired and sleepy but, I can’t sleep Щ(ºДºщ)  So, I think…

Memory, Misery, Mademoiselle

Since time immemorial, humans have tried to understand what memory is, how it works and why it goes wrong. It is an important part of what makes us truly human, and yet it is one of the most elusive and misunderstood of human attributes. Neither is memory a single unitary process but there are different…

Thunderstorm And Earthquake

“When life gives you shit, you make fertilizer. You don’t make shit-nade (shit juice).” –Wine    Have you ever experience a thunderstorm? It’s kinda sudden for me and I’ve never. I heard this huge lightning bolt stuck some place near my room as I was trying to sleep (near the window). It’s so fucked up….

What’s Beyond

Story carries on. So, I have this dream so many times, like about this special someone. Kinda drives me crazy. For me, I know that I shouldn’t look back. Look at me years ago, I’m perfectly fine by my own. I did this and that, I got friends, I laughed. You know, in those empty…

Unbearable

In the beginning, It’s empty. I want to fill it. So I did. It’s hollow. There’s a hole there. Patch it. So you did. But then you’re gone. Destiny, I guess. Life teared it. Saw that hole again, No one able to close. Thought time will heal, It’s not a would, Just born with it….

Finishing An Incomplete Puzzle

“Be nice to everyone because everyone is fighting a battle you never know.” I read that quote somewhere. Don’t even know whose. Although it really change my attitude towards people I met. I kinda got my darkest memories got pulled to the surface last night. Now that I know, toward certain people, I can say…

Build My Pizza In Tokyo

Talking about how my life was before I went to Japan and what I choose to fix. I decided to do something to be free. To be able to enjoy my life and to be free.