To Every Friends And Family

To every friends and family.I’m sorry if I have ever done something that offended and hurt you conscious or not, intentional or unintentional. I am not perfect and for this past several years, I have not been in my right state of mind. Please understand that I am very sick and need to prioritize on…

Parents’ 23rd Anniversary

Today is my parents’ 23rd Wedding Anniversary… It is also the first time I didn’t get to give them anything because I’m very busy with Tokyo Game Show 2016, meeting about a LIVE event in Zepp Diver City, and arranging stuff… I just went back to Tokyo days ago and some of my stuff are stiff in…

Ticking Time Bomb

Since I was a kid, my parents always told me to be feminine, long hair, sweet shit cutie, wear goddamn “girly” thing… It’s just not me, not at all. When I was a kid, I live with my grandma and aunt. It was such a happy time but, every kid needs their parents. Guess what,…

Thunderstorm And Earthquake

“When life gives you shit, you make fertilizer. You don’t make shit-nade (shit juice).” –Wine    Have you ever experience a thunderstorm? It’s kinda sudden for me and I’ve never. I heard this huge lightning bolt stuck some place near my room as I was trying to sleep (near the window). It’s so fucked up….

You Are Not Alone

I’ve been always struggling with things that I couldn’t tell most people about, even my closest. It’s very heavy… On my shoulders, that I hope God could just send me an angel to help me carry all that tragedy. He did. Though, tonight, I want to tell you guys that you are not the only…

Disappointed

Don’t you HATE it…? I hate it. People who pretend like they care. Buy, what I hate most is… People who think that they love me ENOUGH or they THINK that they care ENOUGH about me. What can you give to me? Do I need you? Why should I be nice to you?! You don’t…

My Mother ____ Me

I have a mother. Well, everyone have one. So do I. Well… I have a mother who’ll wake me up, shout and wake me up… Just to annoy me with her words. “Your cousin is… Blablabla… Why are you so… Blablabla…” You know what? The fuck with my cousin! Don’t like having a child like…

I Hate This World

I truly hate what happened to me these days. Stressed because of the exam and this family. Day after day. I tried to love my family but, they just make me sick and even sicker than before. This family annoy me… And I began to hate it even more… I hate adults, some adults who…

Dream

Last night, I have a very weird dream. It’s about me and my father. My father is a very difficult person, stubborn and none can stand in his way. He’s never proud of me, I guess. Whatever I do, he always see it as a mistake. Though sometimes I hate him very much, I know…

Bullet in My Eye

Bullet in My Eye I was 3 years old that time. A small kid who don’t know anything about this cruel and unpredictable world. Who knows, God already show His love to me when I was 3. I didn’t come from a very wealthy family but, at least that time, I can have everything I…