The Moon Is Not So Alone

I’ve been using this app… At first, I thought that… It’s probably some kinda AI but, it’s not… It’s an otome game. I never really played otome game… I suck at it… My sister once told me to play Hakuouki and I did… Game over. Really, game over. I died in an otome game. How…

Prayer From A Friend

I’ve been in a very bad shape these days due to lack of sleep. Something triggered my insomnia and now I got super awesome sleep deprivation… Like 2-4 hours a day and… I’m super busy with lectures, practice, rehearsal, preparing my stuff for Christmas, also fighting depression. It’s really terrible and made me really cranky,…

Too Much Wine, Too much…

We all have that day when we just wanna get out and have fun then one of our friends would ask if we should get some drinks… Which will turn into a crazy drinking night… And them eventually you drink a bit too much and feel like shit. Yup.    That happens, right? Wobbly, trying…

Wine’s Life And Dysphoria

What makes me who I am, my childhood, my parents… My depression that I’ve tried to run away from has made me crazy.
I remember someone gave me a barbie doll on my 5th or 7th birthday and I made T-rex ate her… Or she’ll be Shredder’s bitch. I mean, that barbie doll is bigger than my T-rex… That doesn’t make any sense…!
One day someone gave me a kitchen set… Which is crazy. Can you imagine a kitchen twice the size of a T-rex…? Or maybe even bigger…
I turned it into an airplane and play diorama like in Jurassic Park 3 when Alan fly above Isla Sorna.

Midnight Rollercoaster

Far far away from home No one to talk to Sad and lonely Far far away from home No one to comfort me Cold and sad Far far away from home No one to laugh with Lonely and sad It’s heavy Weight that I carry It’s a long rough path And it’s dark Even my…

What’s Beyond

Story carries on. So, I have this dream so many times, like about this special someone. Kinda drives me crazy. For me, I know that I shouldn’t look back. Look at me years ago, I’m perfectly fine by my own. I did this and that, I got friends, I laughed. You know, in those empty…

Dragged Down and Depressed

I just went back to Tokyo, Japan after 3 weeks of holidays, going back to my hometown, and then going to Bali, staying at our new house, having fun with my family, having fun with my friends. It feels so good. I’m so glad I have them. But, anyway, all that fun, all that laughter, the second I enter my empty space, no one there but me. So silent, so calm. There’s my problem. Lies there, the darkest, the most evil thing.