Counting Days

insomniaɪnˈsɒmnɪə/ noun noun: insomnia habitual sleeplessness; inability to sleep. synonyms: sleeplessness, wakefulness, restlessness; More inability to sleep; archaicwatchfulness Insomnia is a sleep disorder that is characterized by difficulty falling and/or staying asleep.    Since I was a kid, I always have trouble falling asleep. Either it was my anxiety, something frightens me… Or just simply…

Memory, Misery, Mademoiselle

Since time immemorial, humans have tried to understand what memory is, how it works and why it goes wrong. It is an important part of what makes us truly human, and yet it is one of the most elusive and misunderstood of human attributes. Neither is memory a single unitary process but there are different…

My Dark Corner

Some times ago, I thought that it’s better for me to be like how I used to be. The ‘selfish’ me, the loner, the one who never let people in. Well, I ain’t like that. I ain’t that cold but… It’s not that I don’t want to. I have these stuff in my head. Shit…

Because Fuck Life

There are a lot of things in my mind. My mom said that I got stressed easily. Yes, she’s right. I think too much. Eventhough I know it’s not good for me but, how can I not; I have to think about these things. I’m so close to the edge. I’m cracking under the pressure….

You Are Not Alone

I’ve been always struggling with things that I couldn’t tell most people about, even my closest. It’s very heavy… On my shoulders, that I hope God could just send me an angel to help me carry all that tragedy. He did. Though, tonight, I want to tell you guys that you are not the only…

Dragged Down and Depressed

I just went back to Tokyo, Japan after 3 weeks of holidays, going back to my hometown, and then going to Bali, staying at our new house, having fun with my family, having fun with my friends. It feels so good. I’m so glad I have them. But, anyway, all that fun, all that laughter, the second I enter my empty space, no one there but me. So silent, so calm. There’s my problem. Lies there, the darkest, the most evil thing.