Feels Like It Will Never End

Recently, I’ve been thinking about 2019 because well, we’re just here in 2019 for 5 days and we got 360 more days to come. I have some sickening thoughts, as some of you may already know, I have depression and I’ve been fighting it for a very long time. I have tendency to get depression…

Dog Loving Woman Works Alone, Saving Dogs From Restaurant

I was on a business trip to Medan, Indonesia with my best buddy last week and we found an incredible woman on our last night. We were having dinner in the street of Medan. It’s like an open chinatown, crowded and a lot of beggars and street musician came to us. Then, an old woman…

Mengirim Sebuah Pesan

Sebelumnya saya post di Facebook mengenai Sus Yati yang berangkat ke tanah suci untuk menunaikan ibadah umroh. Awalnya saya tidak ingin post foto-foto tersebut, kalaupun saya post, saya ingin private. Kemudian saya tergerak oleh adik saya untuk posting sedikit mengenai peristiwa ini karena… Kami rasa, awalnya, untuk lingkaran dekat kami, kami ingin mendorong teman-teman untuk…

How to Approach Your Crush Via Text

I got asked for advice a lot, especially from close friends about how to properly approach someone they like (a.k.a. Their Crush) since I come from a good mannered family (strict traditional family who always talk about honor). My life sounds awful from that sentence (“¬_¬) Anyway, I think sending a text is a casual…

Got In Patreon

Just got in Patreon…Please support, much appreciated. Since I won’t be doing live performance due to health condition (I’m trying to get well right now and I’m on medication), I think, it’s time to focus on “The Album”! Yes, I’m going to work on the album and I’m going to need all the support I…

To Every Friends And Family

To every friends and family.I’m sorry if I have ever done something that offended and hurt you conscious or not, intentional or unintentional. I am not perfect and for this past several years, I have not been in my right state of mind. Please understand that I am very sick and need to prioritize on…

Prayer From A Friend

I’ve been in a very bad shape these days due to lack of sleep. Something triggered my insomnia and now I got super awesome sleep deprivation… Like 2-4 hours a day and… I’m super busy with lectures, practice, rehearsal, preparing my stuff for Christmas, also fighting depression. It’s really terrible and made me really cranky,…

Dead Ballad

Why Do I Feel This way I had a nightmare It’s terrifying I’m afraid It’s dark How much You Mean To me God, I’m a sinner I get jealous over others I want What I shall never Should I Just Disappear I am the black dove The crow, scavenger I am the sheep Who died…

Memory, Misery, Mademoiselle

Since time immemorial, humans have tried to understand what memory is, how it works and why it goes wrong. It is an important part of what makes us truly human, and yet it is one of the most elusive and misunderstood of human attributes. Neither is memory a single unitary process but there are different…

Between The Wolverine And Godzilla

I got a lot of stuff in my room Wolverine’s sitting there Godzilla here and there Iroman on the shelf Goku and Vegeta on the other shelf Mikasa near my books And I’m tired of keeping everything in order I’m giving up OCD won’t enslave me anymore That’s how tired I am However It’s not…